Day 18: If you had a friend who talked to you like you talk to yourself, how long would you allow that person to be your friend?
To be honest, I think I would dump that friend within a few days.
My thoughts can be absolutely cruel at times. What's sad is that this is me. I'm insulting not only myself, but a child of God. I don't deserve these insults. I am valued. I am cherished and loved by God. I'm His treasure.
I don't tolerate meanness from friends. If I feel like a friend is bringing me down, I'll let her know. And if she is outright mean to me or will not stop saying hurtful comments, I'll end the friendship because I do know that I'm worth more than being mocked and put down. I don't take cruelty. At least not from others.
When I talk to myself like I sometimes do, I'm sinning. I'm putting down a creation of God. I'm saying that something He made with love isn't good enough. I'm calling the apple of God's eye worthless. That's a mistake. That's a sin.
I need to work on treating myself better. It may be easy to put myself down and use hateful names, but I'm worth more than that. I know in my heart that I am. This has all come from the time in my life when I was severely depressed and suicidal, back when I thought my life wasn't worth living. I hated myself. I gave my own life no value at all. While I now know my life holds value, old habits die hard. I still insult myself when I mess up.
From now on, whenever I put myself down, I'm going to consciously try to correct myself. "No, you aren't stupid. No, you aren't ugly. No, you aren't worthless. God made you to be glorious. You're His beloved."
God made me beautiful. He has given me value and it's time to treat myself that way.
Here are today's questions:
1.) If you had a friend who talked to you like you talk to yourself, how long would you allow that person to be your friend?
2.) Do you treat yourself with love or with hate?