Day 12: If you knew you would die in two weeks, would you change anything about your life right now?
I've thought a lot about this. To an extent, I think I definitely need to make a change in my life. I have no idea how long I'm going to live. I could die tomorrow. I could die today. I should live like every day is my last and make the most of the time I have.
On the other hand, I still need to plan for a future. I need to save money for college and work on getting an education. All of this I would ignore if I knew I was going to die in two weeks. I'd quit my tutoring job and I'd probably quit high school too. I'd start spending and giving away my money on worthy causes. If I probably won't die in two weeks, I'd definitely still want to continue with school and my job and my savings. I wouldn't be counting down the clock. I'd be instead optimistically planning for the future.
Some things I would change about my life in those two weeks would be...
- I would say "I love you" to my family and friends more. My family is actually pretty good about saying that sort of thing, but I'd say it even more. I'd also start writing letters to each person in my family, telling them how much they mean to me. I wouldn't want to die with anyone wondering where they stood with me. I'd want everyone to feel loved by me.
- I'd spend more time around people and less time alone. While I love my privacy and alone time, I'd be spending time around others as a way to say goodbye. I would want everyone to have closure, and I'd want to make the most of the time I had... with my family.
- I would write as much as I possibly could. Right now, I write a lot, but if I knew I was going to die, I'd start cramming the writing in and perfecting what I wanted to be published someday. In a lot of ways, writing is my legacy, so I'd want it to live on after I died.
- I would give more things away. I'd give some things to friends and family as tokens and reminders of me. I'd give other things away to the poor and the needy because I sure wouldn't need those things anymore. My car, clothing, and guitars, for example.
- I would make sure I was right with God. Even though I know the Lord is merciful and would still love me unconditionally, I wouldn't want to have a grudge or the burden of a sin on my shoulders while I stood before Him for the first time. This is something that I should do right now. Every moment I live, I should try to stay right with God. I shouldn't ever hold something until I think I may die.
If you knew you would die in two weeks, what would you change about your life?