Day 23: What is a quality about yourself that you like? That you're striving to change?
Just to clear this up... I probably sat here and stared at this computer screen for ten minutes, trying to decide what quality about myself that I like well enough to write about. It feels like bragging. But honestly, everybody has good qualities and I should be confident enough in myself to admit one of my own good qualities. No worries... I have plenty of bad ones to even them out.
I like my loyalty. I'm a loyal person. It takes a lot for me to pull away from a friendship. I think my loyalty stems from my stubbornness. I'm very, very, very stubborn, which can be a good thing at times and a very bad thing at others. :) I feel like Mr. Monk. "It's a gift... and a curse." But anyways, I think I'm loyal because of my stubbornness when it comes to giving up on a friendship. It takes a lot for me to break ties with a good friend.
I may not be as shy as I was when I was in Jr. High, but I'm still a reserved person. While I'm casual friends with many people, it takes a lot for someone to become a truly close friend of mine. When I finally break down my walls and make a close friend, I feel very loyal towards them and it will take a lot to break us apart. I love my friends to death. And I like that. Loyalty is a quality that admire in others as well and one that I like in myself. My best friend is very loyal, which I love. :)
A quality that I'm striving to change about myself is my tendency to hold grudges. When someone hurts me or makes me angry, I tend to hold everything inside and feel bitter towards them. I keep a grudge instead of talking things out. I don't like that about myself because God commands us to forgive, not to hold angry thoughts inside.
I still struggle with a couple of grudges in my life right now. There are a few people who have hurt me, and it's hard for me to forgive and forget, even when I know Jesus wants me to. But I'm working on those problems. If Jesus actually forgave every single one of my terrible sins, then the least I can do is forgive the meager sins of others.
What's funny is sometimes I have trouble holding grudges against people who hurt my friends. I feel so angry when someone hurts a loved one that I almost feel like they've hurt me. Has anyone else ever felt that way?
What is a quality about yourself that you like?
What is a quality about yourself that you're striving to change?