"Spin me around, Daddy."
As a little girl, one of my biggest delights was when my father would lift me into his arms and spin me around. I felt as if I was soaring through the air, as fast and as high as a bird, but I was never afraid as long as my daddy's arms held me close. I knew he would not drop me.
As a little girl, I only knew God as Daddy.
Years passed and I began to turn away from the faith of my childhood. I didn't have the same trust in Father-God anymore and for a time I also lost faith in my earthly father. As I grew in stature, I knew that if my daddy tried to spin me around, his strength would falter. I was not a little girl anymore. I was too heavy, too big. My name for my father changed from Daddy to Dad. My name for God turned from Daddy to Judge.
The God I saw in my classes at school and in the early books of the Bible seemed like a harsh, angry being who encouraged legalism and hated people who made mistakes... and I knew I made so many. I dreaded His wrath. When I saw the hurting in the world, I could not find His mercy.
When I was fourteen years old, I gave my life to the Lord and began to eagerly seek Him through His Word. Throughout the entirety of the Bible, in Leviticus, in Isaiah, in Song of Solomon, in 1 Corinthians, I finally saw one God. I saw a just God who is also a God of love. He is ever-faithful and a Father who accepted me as His child with delight. He is worthy.
As I further grew in the Lord, I also grew closer to my own father. Although I no longer leaped into his arms so he would spin me in circles and throw me into the air, I would take his hand. I was still his little girl. I'd look to him for guidance and wisdom. I wanted to be like him.
And in my search, I am beginning to understand what it means when Christ calls me His Bride. What it means to love Him as a child and as a servant and as a bride all at once.
I want to know Him, not just from His Word, but in His Spirit. I want to have an intimate relationship with my Jesus. I thrill in His presence. I stand in awe of His Name. I love Him and I feel loved by Him. I am His Bride.
When I do one day fall in love and get married, I will use the earthly examples of my precious daddy and my beloved husband to remember the beautiful purpose of love the Lord has created for my heart. I want to reflect this to others as well.
God is love.